Emotionally naked: acceptance or bust {poetry | acceptance}

I tripped over an epiphany in my dark wanderings. It has occurred to me that now is the time to do the thing that terrifies me: expose my half-baked bod to the universe. Yes, that is right, I am using you for my own personal growth. You don't have to like it. But if you [...]

Body 2.0 has arrived: my story of prophylactic double mastectomy and DIEP flap reconstruction (so far)

Two weeks ago today I spent the day soaking in all the love and enjoyment I could knowing that in less than 24 hours I was going to undergo my long-anticipated prophylactic bilateral mastectomy and DIEP flap reconstruction. Intellectually, I understood what would be happening. I even thought I had an idea of the mental, [...]

T-minus five days: life moves pretty fast

Five days until Body 2.0 and I finished something important to me. I've been working on a poetry project for a long time and my goal was to have all the poems chosen and assembled before my surgery. And what do you know? Done and done. The next phase is production and that will happen [...]

Gratitude and celebrating the now: more pre-mastectomy reflections and {poetry}

*A note to the reader: scroll slowly as you approach the end unless you are prepared to/have been waiting/always dreamed of/have already seen me topless. Of course, they are just nipples after all. We all have them. Well, most of us anyway, unless we are going to get them for our birthday or forgo them [...]

Body 2.0 partial preamble…and burn {poetry}

So 43 days...Wednesday, November 20th it is... Body 2.0 partial preamble Meditate every day Run the beach Keep writing Ride Bradbury String eight pull ups Get a Cindy PR Finish my poetry project Have a date with my Love at Eventide again Button up my practice for my sabbatical Take a kick ass vacation Wholeheartedly [...]

October is breast cancer awareness month: redefining the pink ribbon and banishing my poor me

Yesterday I wallowed in a pool of 'poor me' for most of the day. Eventually I got so pruney, I had to get out. Besides the water, after starting out warm and inviting, turned freezing cold, nasty, and disgusting. I know better. It happens every time. It all started the day before at the gym [...]

Durability, attention to detail, and knowing what doesn’t matter

In preparation for two days of appointments at the end of the week, I thought it might behoove me to prepare a bit. Some of the preparation is practical like, first of all, ensuring that my guys will get to school and karate and football and be loved while I'm gone. That is almost all [...]

Body 2.0: living embodied or bust

I can remember a time when I would go to the beach with my swimsuit under my clothes and just leave my cover up on…because why take it off? The whole world would see my body. I really didn’t feel like seeing my body. Especially after having two babies, I would look in the mirror [...]

Mastectomy, DIEP flaps, and doughnuts, oh my!

Appointment number five was delightful-ish. The plastic surgeon I saw locally was not the one my friend (she had a reconstruction after her cancer) recommended. After being grumpy about scheduling annoyance that I couldn’t see her, I resigned myself to seeing him. I’m glad I did. It’s my first lesson in going with the flow. [...]

Here’s where I want you to put that pink ribbon…

I’m an optimist. I love hope. I love positive energy and focus. My passion is accompanying people on their journeys to create the life they want. I know without doubt that is absolutely how I am built. But right now I’m feeling something different. I hit anger tonight. I’m angry. I’m wildly, irrationally, intimidatingly angry. The [...]

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